i've been walking around in a dream land for the last 2weeks. Everything was very surreal and it felt like a dream. Yesterday the bubble popped and reality hit me hard. This place is real. That baby was found in a trash can because it has AIDS. This child fought in the war. This child raised itself and its siblings because it had no parents. This person eats once a week... Its so easy to be in the western world and think Africa is just a stereotype and the things that happen here arent real. Its real.

Africa. Africa. Africa.
Im A Little In Love.

Well here we are in africa. Fun times!
So much has happened so far. Im struggling to catch my breath.
I love it here <3. I might live here one day.
Im excited about adventures that are coming up.
My life is one huge adventure. I cant keep up.
What the heck.
Im excited though. Good times. Good times.
God is amazing. Thats all I can say. <3

Will miss them.

As the countdown gets closer to zero, i realize more and more that im going. More importantly i realize that they're not coming with me. So many people, so many goodbyes, so many hugs, so many tears. Why can't they come? All in my suitcase. It will be fine. I'm sure it will. Customs will not even notice. No more hugs, no more phone calls. I shouldn't be freaking out like this. I should be fine. I'm not going forever. I should get over myself. I don't know how though. How do I change from doing something every day to not doing it at all. Will I be replaced? Will i be forgotten? Will the mild impact that I have possibly made be erased and scribbled over by someone new and more wise? I'm so selfish.

I'm a friend of the God that made this.

Before it's time to leave again
I've got one hand on the steering wheel
One waving out the window
If I'm a spinster for the rest of my life
My yarns will keep me warm on cold, lonely nights

Tie Me To The End Of A Kite So I Can Go On With My Life.

How can things be so perfect one moment and so not the next.

Rosie Thomas - Pretty Dress

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Tonight : Bed. Tea. Gilmore Girls.

2 weeks.