Life.

Ever wondered if it was even worth it? All that time, all that money, all that energy into making something happen? Maybe I should have just sent the money and stayed back. Am i even making a difference? I feel like im taking 5 steps forward and 4 steps back... Progress is progress i suppose... I dont feel like im doing anything that is actually helpful... I feel like I was doing more for the kingdom back home... Does He even need me? No... Is He simply choosing to use me? Yes... Why? I dont know... I feel drained and I feel tired... I feel like Im constantly under attack and Im struggling to keep my head above water... Praise God for all that He is doing... For all that He has done... For all that He will do... Praise God for the friends I have made while ive been here... Praise God for the stuff that He IS doing through me, even if i cant see it...Praise God that im here for a purpose and that the purpose will be fulfilled before I leave... Praise God for amazing friends back home who have constantly supported me... Praise God for the people who make life difficult and give God an opportunity to break through and do something amazing. Im so thankful to have a God that looks after me.. . This blog doesnt make sense, i know... My life doesnt make sense though... Who would have thought that i would end up here, ministering in Africa, worship leading, preaching... God is so good to me... What right do we have to complain about what God has us doing? He doesnt need us, He doesnt need me. He CHOOSES to use us, He CHOOSES to use me... Yes Africa is hard, but Africa is worth it.